Late Night Thoughts

Do you ever feel deep pain inside?
Cried so much till you can't force no more tears out your eyes?
Now see, felt like you could never get it right?
It's sucks to face reality
Cause this is the point I'm at in my life
Feels like I'm drowning
I'd rather go off in the deep end
Step on my heart if you want to
Because, I don't give two fucks
At this point, yes I'm feeling numb
Feels like there's no one around me
Do I really care? Oh no
I don't know why, I ever even tried
There's no point, can't stick with any guy
I know I've done my dirt
I guess I got what I deserved
Love is a bitch it hurts
I'd rather pretend like it never happened

I can feel my heart, it's racing
Feeling pressure in my lungs though
I look back
And I don't even recognize who I was before
Was I ever really happy?
Or just faking for the photos?
I'm left with me and my thoughts alone
A lot of late nights I would sit here
And think of what I've done wrong
Yes you loved me, but I told you from the jump I would do you wrong
I was not stable enough to be with you
After all the hurt I've been through
I'm left with me and my thoughts alone

I came with a lot of baggage
When you laid your eyes on me
Cause first I was 'Bound'
Couldn't get him 'Off My Mind'
And I thought I was better off lonely
Maybe I wasn't right
I thought that I needed something to help relieve the pain
I needed someone who was gonna take his place
And that was you
You did something for me, so thank you
But in the end, no one really wins
Nah