Let It Go

I love you but
What a way for me to end this
I served you my heart
And you played like it's tennis
Gave it nice incentives that would make our lives stupendous
The day you try to mend us is the same you lie defensive
Always making some ultimatum to solve your hating
Put up walls complaining
It's 'cuz I caught you and called it ain't it
It's time for us to face the facts
Can't chase the past or fake the laughs
We'd break like glass
There's nothing you could claim for the pain that remains
It's insane that a change might sustain us again
It rains then it pours then it drains then it's warm
Then the flame is ignored back the same as before
And I just can't anymore 'cuz I'm running on e
You wanna try but my intuition doesn't agree
You raise my anger up a hundred degrees
Thunderous speech
Butting heads until our hearts bled in utter defeat
So much animosity the kids can't not see it
It's getting harder to padlock secrets
So we're packed up leaving
But you won't even acknowledge that fact
Listen we love you and we wish you could just take it all back but

Sometimes it works out and sometimes it doesn't
Sometimes what you thought it was really wasn't
You can't sit and dwell 'cuz the past never changes
The only thing that lasts is the anguish

My heart is laid out
Got thoughts with grey clouds
Without you in the picture my legs dropped and gave out
Got a lot to say how am I supposed to accept
That you're gone and not jump when I'm so close to the edge
I'm broken and incomplete
Smoking until I sleep
Keep drowning in booze and haven't been sober in over weeks
The hole is just way too deep to fill
It's so useless
I'd rather swallow a heap of pills
I'm so stupid
There's nothing I wouldn't do to be a family again
I'm practically nothing if I'm not your man and your friend
And I cannot pretend like everything will be alright
I close my eyes and you're the only thing I see all night
I can't breathe!
I lost my job lost my dough
Lost my mind lost my soul
Lost control
Now I'm sitting gripping a picture of us long ago
Staring death in the face like he's all I know
What else can there be for a wretch like me
I invested in our future like it was destiny
Now I'm drugged up excessively
As I fade to black
I love you and wish I could take it all back but

Sometimes it works out and sometimes it doesn't
Sometimes what you thought it was really wasn't
You can't sit and dwell 'cuz the past never changes
The only thing that lasts is the anguish
So let it go