Walk on the Beach

(As i walk upon this very beach, gray skies, barefoot.)

When it rains it pours
Then the seagull soars
I be thinking deep to myself on the sand
Is my life going as planned?
Is the man above manipulating me with his very hand?
As the thunder bellows
I see my reflection down below
I see a depressed fellow
Looking like he messed up in life
Tends to fuck up on sight
Doesn't have the might but feels forced to fight
Tends to seek happiness than wealth
The man in the puddle is myself
Its a reflection
Reminding me i lost all connection
Or is my life full of misconception
Because i got no recollection of the definition of perception
Am i worthless?
As i shield my shame pulling back curtains

(As i walk into the water thinking to myself whether i should keep going with this, Or just suffer the consequences and dive down deep.)

Looking at myself in the water tryna maintain
All this damage that been put inside of my brain
As i get deeper into my thoughts tryna maintain
And my own reflection in the water i see everything
I be meditating tryna get my mind straight
Splashing water on my face
Tryna find my only place
Tryna find myself
I ain't seeking nowhere else
On this side of my mind its just bars behind a cell
I'm forever locked in jail
All these problems feel like hell
But when i walk on the beach i feel my inner self
I be only by myself
I don't need nobody else
Living my life on the beach to connect my inner self

(As i reach the twilight zone, I've think I've dove in too deep conveyed in emotions. At this point i know i can't go back, So i must keep going.)

Waiting for the moment to arise
Where I
Can go out and see the fucking tide
Bet ya
It was better when it was the ride
Miss ya
In the fucking
In the fucking summertime

Waiting for the moment to arise
Where I
Can go out and see the fucking tide
Bet ya
It was better when it was the ride
Miss ya
In the fucking
In the fucking summertime

Feel like a fucking roller coaster never ending
Like a piece of paper easy to rip in
What ya Sipping?
Alcohol!
Cause i don't like feeling of feeling at all
I wish I was heading for my downfall (Downfall!)
Feel like a Nuisance
Give me a noose sis
What the fuck you giving for my loneliness
Feeling a lil tense
This is fucking making sense
What the fuck you giving for my Loneliness

(As i reach the Abyss, its too dark down here. I'm already covered in emotions i can't control myself. I'm stuck down here.)

I fell so deep down
I think i'm finna drown
I'm loading magazines I fill em up a thousand rounds
I'm murdering my demons, let the bodies hit the ground
Still i feel lost no more waiting to be found
As I'm crawling through the pits of my darkness
I begin to question why I've become so fucking heartless
The truth is I'm not just trying to be a fucking artist
I'm tryna fabricate this shit and make a fucking market
They done broke my heart, They done crushed my soul
I been working hard, Now i don't want it no more
I'm tired of all this sucka shit
Cmon bitch lets just take it for what it is
When i was there for you you'd flip the script
I'm so down so imma dig outta this crypt
I should've known that you'd play me you stupid bitch
I'm taking all of whats mine
Cause girl I'm not tryna love you
You fucking up on a dime
I only wanted to fuck you
I'm tired of wasting my time
I'm taking the high road above you
Been working these nine to fives
And i still don't know what i'm tryna do



Credits
Writer(s): Beau Evan Berkhout
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