Dull

Dogs in the yard, are
Barking loudly
I can hear it fine
My ears are
Hurting

Noises all
Around me are so big
They bounce in my head

All this food making me sick
Nothing in my bed
Nothing in my fridge
Nothing in my chest
Nothing
Nothing

I'm dulling out, I will
I will not stop, I will not
I'm dulling out, I will
I will not, I will not, I
Feel it still, the
Claws in my brain trying to remember
But I'm too dull to recall
What it was I'm trying to not forget

I'm dulling out
Overstimulated
Unprepared for the consequences of my actions

I feel myself dulling out
My senses are getting
Weak, and my sense of self
Is growing smaller

The moths that used to crown me
Are no longer attracted to my glow
They found something brighter
Than what they used to know

I'm dulling out, I will
I will not stop it
I'm dulling out
I will not, I will not, I will not, I will not, I will
I feel it still
The claws in my brain trying to remember
But I'm too dull to recall what it was
I was trying to not forget, and

I can feel my brain as it gets older
And I sense all my hair
Turning grey at the roots
I will not cover them
I will not cover them

I'm dulling out
I will not, I will not stop it
The crows have come
They're singing softly
They can see I'll be there soon
They can smell it on my breath

Dulling out
Dulling out
Dulling out
Dulling out
I will not, I will not, I will not, I will not stop it