Sirens

See me go back and forth
This is not self control
Trapped in a mild state
Settled in my old ways
Never been here I'm sure
Never this far before
Even though I'm unsafe
Oddly I'm not afraid

Then I go on and cave
How do I speak to me
Only in harsher tones
Only so I can't breath
I do this to myself
Speaking in secrets I can't tell
Put it all on the edge
Picking it up I fell

Butterflies die when I cover my eyes
You poured salt on the cuts on my mind
Tongue full of venom in these summertime nights
Jump from a edifice what if I fly?
Yea I been drifting off, in a fog, centers synagogue
Listening to inner gods telling me I'm different
Like a demagogue, I don't want to interrupt
Cinema in the cuts, indicas inhale in my crystal lungs
'Til it looks like an evergreen's inside me
Seasonal leaves seem to redefine me
They deify things I leave behind
Sing in minor keys I don't see the irony
Iron lung but my teeth are ivory
Mama says that she thinks I'm out of reach
Girlfriend says she don't see that side of me
I don't say shit I just keep it silent

The sunset on Sunset's peach and violet
No more blood-letting when the leeches bite me
One more love letter 'fore the creatures find us
I'll show you the shadows that my secrets hide in
Take what they need then they leave you lifeless
A chrysalis lives so deep inside you
Below the surface where demons riot
A broken person grows so subversive
Choke on words so the screams are quiet
Can't hear the sirens though they keep their eye on me
Maybe one day I'll learn to cease my fire
I hope you're still there when I seek asylum

Here I am back again
Silhouette of a shell I am
Still in a darkened place
Fighting another hell I am
Something here hurts my head
Something here leaves me strange
Nothing can hold me back
No one here knows my name

Then I go on and cave
How do I speak to me
Only in harsher tones
Only so I can't breathe
I do this to myself
Speaking in secrets I can't tell
Put it all on the edge
Picking it up I fell