Remember

I was sitting in the corner of the room
She walked in with the white Nike Zooms
I was with my whole crew but
All I recall that day is who
Would eventually wreck me
Cost me like I ball in the rec league
Cost me like I'm picking up the check
Never would have guessed
the story would be the ending but
I fell in love that day
Had me 17 using words like fate
Getting red in face
Made my heart race
The way she'd sway
When she walked away, ooh
She was beauty and grace
She lit the place. I hit my knees,
Bowed head to pray. Then I gave chase
She broke my heart. What else to say
I ain't ever been the same
Used to fall fast now I'm all inside my brain
Influenced by the pain
Got me thinking all these dames playing games
It's exhausting
Got me wasting time this is costly
Passing up on dimes like it's laundry
After all these years she still haunt me
Tryna move on but it's daunting

Do you remember
When love was simpler
Before we got older
Oh I remember

Now look
I don't wanna be dramatic
But it's tragic
Whole thing a bit traumatic
My boys told me "Suck it up,
Don't be actin like you ain't masculine"
So I buried feelings in a casket and
Put it 6 deep started masking it
Then I casually moved on to the next one
Like a Roc National
I was masterful in the pageantry
But the last to be fooled cause I could see
How I talk that talk behind the phone screen
Making her believe that this the real me
But I'm closed off like city streets
And secretly I'm wishing she
Was a different girl when she kissed me
But I still smiled and pretended we were so in love
I'm so nauseated by the thought that I could have created
Heartbreak like what I felt 'cause I wouldn't deal with pain from someone else
I built up walls and slept in cells
'Cause it's easier to protect myself
What could be more selfish?
That's a hellish realization have you questioning your wellness

Do you remember
When love was simpler
Before we got older

I remember
Do you remember
'Cause I remember

Thinking lately bout my future got me looking in my past
When I loved last. funny how
Time goes by so fast
And unforgiveness only makes the pain amass
And mistrust only makes the pain get passed
On to someone who never asked for it
And when left unaddressed, relationships can really never last. So it's
Time for me to grow beyond these
Limitations I been placing on me
I'm tryna break these generational curses
That's been on my family for all these
Years, cycles of divorce and tears
And broken homes, but that stops here
Lemme make this perfectly clear
I am choosing Love that casts out fear
Fear that my kids will grow up in two houses
Fear that I may have two or more spouses
Fear that fear of getting hurt again would affect my decisions, make my judgement clouded
Fear that pain has somehow made love shrouded
In complication. I'm letting go unfounded
And ungodly beliefs, thought it was love that made me weak
But really it sets me free

Oh I remember
Do you remember
Oh I remember
Oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh