Find Myself

After sunset, only quiet
No one is on the street tonight
Stay indoors, shut the curtains
It's so much safer there inside

I heard her say, I'm always with you
As she turned to lock the door
Alone in the dark, perfect clarity
I know who the words were for

And I find myself wishing
She was someone she could never be
In a man-made hell
Safe behind the order of a vanity
Love is more than silent offence, but I know
It was never gonna be what I need

As my eyes adjust to the moment
I see new colors come from grey
I'm on my own, or so they told me
Finally found the words to say

That I find myself
Even as they tell me I have passed away
Stayed alive and well
Even after everything I paid
Love is not what
I was taught but now I know
It was always gonna be this way

I didn't get what I wanted
But I got everything I need

I didn't get what I wanted
But I got everything I need

And I find myself wishing
She was someone she could never be
And I find myself and what if it's not a tragedy
Love is finding you can come out of hiding, but I know
No one's gonna say the words for me