IDIOT GRL

Since I can remember, I've always had a group of girls that's had it out for me
In kindergarten to highschool, I could name them all
And I was the one they loved to shit on
So I got it in my head that nobody wanted me

Everybody in my class was white and had straight, pretty hair
And I grew up in a house of curly-hair girls that wanted straight hair
So I got so consumed with my looks that there wasn't much else I seemed to care about

In fifth grade I got in trouble for having a mirror in my desk
But I would always check to see if I looked a mess
And I taught myself that I wasn't beautiful because there wasn't anyone to tell me different

And I was loved, but I was alone
Not to mention that I didn't have any friends of my own
'Cus sometimes knowing that you're loved just isn't enough

Idiot girl, you're no good to anyone
You can't do anything right, you take yourself too serious
You're always fucking things up
And in your world, you're an idiot girl
You're the worst, never learn, don't you hate it?
Sitting alone all these years made you complacent to it all
'Cus now in my world, I'm an idiot girl

I always had to be the best singer, athlete, runner, whatever
Well, it didn't really matter
I couldn't win at life but at least I was a winner
But it didn't make me feel any better, no
No, it didn't make me feel any better

And now I'm older and can't open up
Seems like before I can open my mouth I've already been judged
'Cus my whole childhood was full of people not caring enough or passing me up

Idiot girl, you're no good to anyone
You can't do anything right, you take yourself too serious
You're always fucking things up
And in your world, you're an idiot girl
You're the worst, never learn, don't you hate it?
Sitting alone all these years made you complacent to it all
'Cus now in my world, I'm an idiot girl