You and I

I've been walking around like a puzzle
Scattered and all the pieces missing
Stuck between a rock and a hard place
Life or death. I gotta make the right decision
Grabbing the razor making a deep incision
Trying to paint a picture so you can envision
What it's like in my head when the screws are missing
My last few words on a paper is what I'm gripping
It may bring a tear to your eye if you see what was written
Would you try to help. Or would you see me different
Most would kick me when im down and beggin'
And only think of themselves never me for a second
I'm standing on the ledge closer I'm edging
Open my arms and start to free fall
I've wore a fake smile for so long fighting to be tall
I've been through so many ups and downs I've seen all
Witnessed enough helplessness to last me a lifetime
Kept me down in the pits so long I began to write rhymes
Tears rolled off my face until I felt right cryin

Fuck depression, fuck suicide
This life ain't just do or die
Better buckle up it's a bumpy ride
We can do this together you and I

Sitting here all alone in the dark
I want my story to end before it starts
I'm trying to light the fire inside to
Keep going but my flint won't make sparks
If you could see the damage done to my mind
You wouldn't believe the amount of scars and marks
Not allowed to be happy my heart has bars
Caged up and only fed enough to keep it alive
I don't feel like me I feel like someone skinned me and is wearing my Hyde
I used to be happy and never cried bit now it's all bottled up inside
Faking a smile to get through the day just to breakdown at night
Cutting it close like missing the veins with the knife
I can't take it no more I'm drowning in my mind
It's a pool of negativity and I'm on it's thin ice
With ankle weights and bare feet
I keep moving because I don't like the taste of defeat
I've fought it off before. I cannot retreat
If you want to win against these thoughts you need to believe
That you got the will and the power
Grin and bear it no matter if it's sour
I got people depending on me and they love me this can't be my final hour
Let this be your battle cry and yell it louder
God only gives you as much as you can take
So break chains and overcome all you encounter

Fuck depression, fuck suicide
This life ain't just do or die
Better buckle up it's a bumpy ride
We can do this together you and I

It doesn't matter who believes in you
If you never believe in yourself
No one can help you as much as you
Can help yourself
If you don't endure the struggles
Happiness won't be worth it when it's felt
It'll be like getting something for free
Instead of fighting for what you want struggling
That's all we want. To be happy and full of hope
But yet we have to see the doctors and they just give us Dope
This will make you feel better. I hope
But they only see you when your sitting in the chair
They never see the you holding the rope
Keeping busy while your sad just to cope
Believing it'll go away but it never does
And if you think your alone we aren't the only ones
Fighting the battle between happy and hopeless
Waking up all together and then all broken
Pieces scattered all over spend the rest of your time picking them all up.
This shit is starting to feel like an Easter egg hunt