Trying to Cope

Hmmm, hmmm, hmmm, hmmm
Hmm, hmm, hmm, hmm, hmm
Yea
Look
Living life on the daily
Regular couldn't phase me
That shit made me realize I was stronger than eighty
Percent of the population, been maintaining
Myself as a person, yay high finger painting
Started chasing greatness back when the PlayStation
Had that memory card, best believe I was thinking
This world was so good and all the evil was vacant
Young lost and confused nigga, fuck was I thinking
Actually, I shouldn't be hard on myself for breaking
Them simple rules, or pity a fool just for dreaming
Now I see life plain as day, and I'm awaken
Learnt don't put all your eggs in one basket because they breaking
And damn life is a lesson
And I ain't ace the test yet, because I catch myself guessing
Seeking approval from your peer group
Nigga stop stressing
Making it harder on yourself to deal with those imperfections
And God I got some questions
Don't mean to put you on blast, but you ignored my last message
Been tryna to talk to you dawg, since the age of eleven
Kept you deep in my thoughts, nah I ain't forgetting
Swear I bring that shit up whenever I'm reminiscing
I've seen our relationship slowly become distant
Don't know if you forgot me, or got me in vision
But hopefully your door is still open with no hinges
Hold on I'm trippin
You been with me from the start
How the fuck could I have ever think you left me in the dark
Listening to other people, I should've listened to my heart
But I ain't even gonna lie
Trying to Cope is hard

Yea
Trying to Cope is hard
Tired of what you driving
Want you a new car
Tired of who you with
Wanna get you a star
Tired of taking shots
You trying to buy the bar
Damn
Trying to Cope is hard
Tired of no money
Got you breaking the law
Tired of fake friends
Got you playing the part
Remember who you are and how you made it this far (Look)

People ask me, how you doing
I say surviving
Trying to love myself
But they say love is blinding
On some birdbox shit
Everyday I'm reminded
Them lights at the end of the tunnel just keep shining
But don't stare at it too long nigga, you'll end up dying
Scared to fail at life
Impossible if you trying
Never putting work in
No wonder, you ain't finding
Yourself as a person
This stuff can be traumatizing
Trying to smoke just to cope with a couple things
Been through hell and back
Still dealing with pain
Still feeling some loss
Still stuck in a maze
Memories don't fade
I carry shit till this day
Never will I remain the same, or go steady
Got the city on my back
Won't drop it, that shit heavy
In fact
My pride is deadly 'cause I can't just push it to the side
And through my lowest points in life, I always see the highs
There's been some times where I feel like I lost hope
People take your kindness for weakness, but that's how you grow
That's how you show society you won't fold
Survival of the fittest nigga
You know how it goes
Yea
Trying to Cope with my own life
Find my own path
My own light, hold on tight
Found my balance, now I'm beyond nice
Put two and two together and we gonna be ight
I'm Trying to Cope nigga
But you know nigga
That I'm one cold nigga
Trying to Cope nigga