Firefly

Some say the end is the beginning and every life is a cycle
Every life is a story, so every life is a bible
Pulled in different directions by opposites that entice you
It's hard to see with all of the devils and gods inside you
When the lights come down and the room gets dark
In the candlelight flickers I'mma do my part
Darkness in my spirit give me lyrics, but i fear it
Only leads me to the doors of my destruction
I can hear it

Through the walls of conciousness avoiding all my common sense
And now anxiety appears to be my body's only occu-occupant
Sometimes I feel like the only choice is just to not exist
No, I'm just talking shit
Wouldn't do that to my mom and shit

Do that to my pops and shit
Do that to my kids
To my wife
To my friends
To my useless fucking life and shit

I might just try to sit and sniff and sip it all away tonight
And slip away into to the night and never see the morning light
I hope it's more to life before it turn myself into a fucking poltergeist
'Cause I got nothing left and I don't know what's right
That's why tonight I'm sitting in the lowest posture
In front of an altar tryna find a way to open all my frozen chakras

Breath into the belly, breath it up out through the nostrills
And as my mind settles then I start to hear the gospel
That some are still scheming for one another to fall
But self love requires the most courage of all

I've been trying to be healed
Looked into the sky for any sign to be revealed
When I'm out in public I aspire to be real
But the truth is that I'm only every trying to conceal
What it's like to lose a friend, in every moment you pretend
That it isn't killing you that you never see them again
So I take a deep breath within and I say your name in my mind
And the craziest thing about it is you respond every time

So I know I'm not alone as I'm taking steps in the dark
'Cause life is the deepest valley between the head and the heart
All you need is love and every moment is a choice
And if you close your eyes and listen, every moment has a voice

So if you every find yourself fighting your past battles
It's important to remember even light casts shadows
And some are still scheming for one another to fall
But self love requires the most courage of all