Hard To Luv

You make it so hard to love
I know you've been scarred, love
Oooh
Lately me and you ain't on the same page
Lately we've been talking 'bout the same thing
And I swear the shit annoying, phone ringing, I'm recording
We both yelling at the top of our lungs, we both losing our voices

Know you been hurt so many times that
you get tired of trying even to believe me
When I say I love you, swear I mean it,
love is blind but I wish you could see it in me
You make it so hard
I know you've been scarred
But I swear to God, I ain't going nowhere
Nowhere, nowhere, yeah, yeah, yeah

I know this shit gets complicated,
'cause lately I been all in my feelings
I know when you flirt you love me that you really mean it
But I can't let feel it,
cause I'm afraid to show you my true feelings, yeah
Scared to show you love,
'cause everything I love, I've lost, ain't with me, yeah, yeah
And part of these drugs,
these thoughts in my head, they're hard to remember, yeah, yeah
All out January, February, all out drunk in December, yeah
I swear my heart is cold as the winter, yeah, inside I'm trembling
And I can't let you in, even if I wanted to
'Cause I've been scarred for years
and my heart been gone for two years
I know you mean it when you say you love me
You been through shit with me when it was ugly
Slept on the floor with me handle how I thuggin'
At least you ain't leave when I ain't have nothin'

Know you been hurt so many times that
you get tired of trying even to believe me
When I say I love you, swear I mean it,
love is blind but I wish you could see it in me
You make it so hard
I know you've been scarred
But I swear to God, I ain't going nowhere
Nowhere, nowhere, yeah, yeah, yeah

Yeah, when the love real
This ain't how it feel
Before the drugs and pills
I was numb but wasn't sober, used to get high off our love still
Our heartbeat used to beat to the same tune
When it only me, and she knew
Similar to me and June in the room,
listening to London On Da Track beat
Tryna catch a vibe while we playin' the loot
If that went over your head
You know that feeling when the door knock and your heart
drop You know its the feds, and you know you wasn't prepared
And now you nervous and scared, heart broke no one can repair
Listening to your friends lies, but knowing that that ain't Derez
Derez De'Shon

Know you been hurt so many times that
you get tired of trying even to believe me
When I say I love you, swear I mean it,
love is blind but I wish you could see it in me
You make it so hard
I know you've been scarred
But I swear to God, I ain't going nowhere
Nowhere, nowhere, yeah, yeah, yeah

You make it so hard for me to love you
When all I want to do is love you
Let me love you
Baby let your guard down
Baby let your guard down