Leave a Light On

Lying awake again, for god's sake
Counting the tiles on the ceiling until my eyes ache
You're gone, but you're still around
Holding on tight to your memory is what I am
Tied up in knots of things best forgotten
Feels like my mind's in the clouds as I suffer at street level

But I can't let go of the cross I bear
Though it hurts me so, knowing you're not there
There's a fire in my heart, and a stone in my soul
But I leave a light on

Sandpaper smile wearing me thin
Blurring the lines where you ended and where I begin
Denied and not satisfied
Seemed like the world hung upon everything you were hung up on

But I can't let go of the cross I bear
Though it hurts me so, knowing you're not there
There's a fire in my heart, and a stone in my soul
But I leave a light on

We could fly, you and I
Turn our backs against the world in our prime
You always swore to tell the truth, or
What the truth appeared to you until you died
Until you died

And I'm trying to let go
Though it hurts me so
Quench the fire in my heart, break the stone in my soul
I'd still leave a light on