Survivor

I'm in a vacant place, feeling like the love is lost
Scarred face, heart breaks, I've been double crossed
I picked myself up, I'm never turning back again
Neglecting God's will, ill, the reason why I'm lacking friends
I did my time through my depression never copped a plea
Immersed in disciple while I'm devulging my philosophies
Refused to suffer, packed a bag and said I gotta leave
And if you want to change your life then come and take a walk with me
I welcome hate, it's obvious that you got awful taste
Under pressure, I excel, that's how I operate
The devil wants to reel me him, he's gonna need the proper bait
Consistently I'm growing to eradicate these toxic traits
I'm grateful for my health, love and all the money made
Battling through ominous clouds to reach my sunny days
I face dilemmas, now astounded, used to run away
Remembering the problems in autumn and all the stomach aches

I know that I need a change fast
Looking in the mirror, think I'm about to relapse (Ooh, ooh)
It's been daunting on me, what if I just O.D.?
They don't see what I see (Whoa)
I lied again, always let myself down
But I ain't giving up in to these demons right now (No)
A survivor I am, survivor I am
I'ma swing with both hands (Whoa)

I turned to drugs now I turn to the page
Unleashing all my thoughts as I'm jotting my pain
And I have come a long way from working minimum wage
Plus I'm thankful for this voice 'cause I got something to say
No more burger flippin', poppin' pills up in the kitchen
Had a premonition, that life ain't going back to living
I can make a difference, from these lyrics that I'm spittin'
Make a choice, a true commitment
Put me up in this position
A lot of scars I wear 'em proudly, but you never gon' see 'em
So many deeds I done wrong but I regret it, believe it
A real man carry all that weight up on his shoulders
We need a woman to hold us up when we'd be down at our lowest
And I, come to grips, got a major confession
Hit rock bottom but I'm climbing to the top and progressing
It ain't about where you come from but how you provision
'Cause the odds of being a human, one in 400 trillion (That's real!)

I know that I need a change fast
Looking in the mirror, think I'm about to relapse (Ooh ooh)
It's been daunting on me, what if I just O.D.?
They don't see what I see (Whoa)
I lied again, always let myself down
But I ain't giving up in to these demons right now (No)
A survivor I am, survivor I am
I'ma swing with both hands (Whoa)

I'm a survivor, they do not see me
I'm a survivor, would you believe me?
I won't give in, they say it's pretend
I keep this battle again and again
I face front, don't look back
Don't know where my head's at
I let go of the past
Now I'm standin', I feel strong
I see the storm, keeps rolling in
That's how I know this ain't the end

I know that I need a change fast
Looking in the mirror, think I'm about to relapse (Ooh, ooh)
It's been daunting on me, what if I just O.D.?
They don't see what I see (Whoa)
I lied again, always let myself down
But I ain't giving up in to these demons right now (No)
A survivor I am, survivor I am
I'ma swing with both hands (Whoa, whoa)