I Tried

I'm wishing on a star
To follow where you are
I'm wishing on a dream
To follow what it means

There's been a lot of pain over the years
I overcame them hasn't been easy
Everything became so good to then before
Everything went down the drain back in my childhood thought everything was cool
Until I was being bullied tried everything not to be this way all my life
I've been around women thinking I was doing was a phase
But it turned into a reality most of the time I should've been around more guys
To have that male figure in my life but it ain't happen that way

I tried not to be this way nothing was working out
All I did was cry it made me weak and to know that I could be this way in the future
It would put me in a living hell for the rest of my life don't know what to do anymore

Could remember all those time
Back in school it was always faggot this and faggot that
Wasn't the guy would be playing sport or video games was always the one listen to Beyoncé would get clowned for that

Tried to fit in but didn't work back when I was 17 all I wanted to do was drink had times when I said why am I even alive wanted to die because I wasn't accepted for the way
I wanted to be it's crazy because all these years I denied and denied

Came to the fact that I would look at myself in the mirror and say
Am I really a faggot was borderline suicidal

Felt like I didn't deserve to be alive came so depressed didn't talk to nobody
And now it feels like I'm all alone in this pain I'm in
Don't know what I did to not feel it anymore sometimes
I wish I could start my life over again if I go back I would've made a lot changes on me

I Tried
I Tried
I Tried

I Wanna start over
Oh
I Tried
I Tried
I Tried

But I can't do nothing to change it
said I tried
I tried
I'm sorry but this is the way
That I wanted to be in my life

Oh

If you look in my life
You see what I see