Anxiety

I fought the war I never wanted
Now I'm stuck within this prison
Wish I could be a free fish in the sea
And you could leave me as be

I fight the fight that keeps me footed
Forking over all my honors
That I had ditched just for a moment
Cause all these fucking fears are growing now

The mansion within my head collapsed and
There were sadly no survivors
Just graves of cells that were all never meant to exist until

All of the graves had dug themselves up
Leaving the mind to fill back up
Expanding what had been gone
The story never ends now does it?

And its a pulse that pounds so thorough
As the resilience burrows
Telling all these feelings to stop...
Go

I don't think that I can want myself
Or thus anyone else
Hard to give away what you can't feel
Suppressed and gripped to seal

I don't think that I can want myself
Or thus anyone else
Hard to give away what you can't feel
Suppressed and gripped to seal

Panic expands indifference falters
The quill is jagged with my flutters
For the frightful manifesto
The young me never thought I would give

Imagine a place you feel outlawed
And there's truly no escaping
Through these eyes that fucking live it
A place where all your dreams will go die

Now it's a tremor that beats so thorough
As the resilience burrows
Telling all these feelings to stop...
Go

I don't think that I can be myself
Or with anyone else
Hard to give away what you can't feel
Suppressed and gripped to seal

I don't think that I can want myself
Or thus anyone else
Hard to give away what you can't think
This ship is set to sink!