Try?

Ringin' in the year
Without a dollar to my name
If that was ever gonna change
There ain't no better time than now
Cause black eyed peas and cabbage
Can't cover up the stains
Of decisions that I made
When life was pressing me

I once had hope in the days that passed me by
Now it don't make sense to try
When I'll just hit my ass again
As the nights get cold I find it hard to stay inside
Am I running from the lie that I'll never
Feel free again

I don't need a destination
Just tell me when we're there
No reason to be scared
We've gone too far to turn around
Tell momma that I made it
So she can lay her head down
But if she tells me that she's proud
I won't believe it

Cause I let my dreams chase away
My common sense
And I'm left without defense
Why she can't have what she deserves
It seems obscene to try
And get it off my chest
A mistake among the rest that means I'll never
Feel free again

Walk into a room
Move some clothes out of the chair
Take awhile to stare
At all the pictures of my youth
And demonize the dreamer
Whose features I still share
But he lacks the weight to bear
Of being selfish

I don't have time to wonder if it all went wrong
I'll be out of here by dawn
To chase this path that now leads me
It makes me smile to know tomorrow's almost gone
Another day to wonder if I'll ever
Feel free again