Wait

Everytime that things seem normal
I flirt with love on an empty hollow
Enjoy the ride on the downward spiral and wait
And wait
Am I just mad, or is it my hormones?
I spoke with Time and he shared his sorrows
Foresees the light but for now endures the pain
He said he hates to watch me wait

Do you know time? I know time
We sat together alone side by side
Developed our own minds
We wrote rhymes
While the others at home finding peace with they family warm ties
Kept me at comfort through home violence
Coke lines, and betrayal when all of these ho's lying
Stone eyes could cut bolts binded by All of the chain links when seared together
If you think you could pierce and injure
My raison de etre calling me weird and different
I've fought through the valley of fear and death and my
Pure resilience has distanced the feeling of victimization
I don't ever want to appear as is if I'm mirror imaging
Heroes, hidden in the crevices of my mechanisms
Is a devil and he experiments with my endocrine system
And maybe thats why when the depression kicks in
Aggression sets in
Impossible to pop the thought bubbles
Unstoppable pressure within
Deflects the pinpricks and any harm from potential intimacy
Listen to me, God's gift to man
Isn't what we think it's to be
Testing our resistance to grief
Affliction and need for physically
Being around whose similarly in situations as twisted as me
And rising above the shit that makes us sit patiently, so

Here I am with poisoned eyes and burried six feet deep
I've waited out the storm and now the rain has rinsed me clean

Everytime that things seem normal
I flirt with love on an empty hollow
Enjoy the ride on the downward spiral and wait
And wait
Am I just mad, or is it my hormones?
I spoke with Time and he shared his sorrows
Foresees the light but for now endures the pain
He said he hates to watch me wait

You gonna go far kid
Off of the deep end in darkness
Why did ya'll treat me so heartless?
Striking me down with no warning
It's alarming
To recount in my head all the visuals
Of times I been fooled by the kids around me
And even went I went digital
And spit the illest shit in my videos
Kicked and hounded down for an art I thought which was ours
Glasses half empty and synced with how
The world wants to set me a tempo now
Even when I tried stem and branching
Out with love and giving everything I ended up falling for a girl who selling her body off second hand
Dammit God, I'm ticking off too many tally marks
Of times you've asked me to stand up strong
I count up the moments and I log it
My damaged body is winding down under the maelstrom
But no matter the back and forth of this pendulum
Son, dial up ya strength and amass a martyr
Use ya pain to attack it all
So stop snoozing, bones and muscles are not moving
No bomb, deuce, or cocked uzi could walk through
Watch what they call you, I'm not cuckoo
I'm just Shockproof and just
Give it a minute and time soon will show you that dark room
You sit in the clocked you in the head with thoughts of loss, doom, and unworthiness
Is not truth, the light switch is on the wall
You just have to be patient, keep waiting

Here I am with poisoned eyes and burried six feet deep
I've waited out the storm and now the rain has rinsed me clean

Everytime that things seem normal
I flirt with love on an empty hollow
Enjoy the ride on the downward spiral and wait
And wait
Am I just mad, or is it my hormones?
I spoke with Time and he shared his sorrows
Foresees the light but for now endures the pain
He said he hates to watch me wait
On and on and on
On and on and on
On and on and on and on and on and on
On and on and on
And on and on and on
On and on and on and on and on and on and on and on
I'll wait
Wait
Wait
I'll wait forever for the sun to rise because the shadows on my soul are nothing when the dawn breaks