Overthink

This is something I have been overthinking
So listen up everybody
Yo listen up

I wish I was simple-minded
Cos this shit is blinding
The gears in my head always grinding
I hate how I feel so divided
Man this shit is killing me
Every day was truancy
Felt like dying brutally
Never felt any fucking unity
I'm digging my own grave
I wish I was brave
I just want my mind to behave
One day I hope to be saved
From my own brain
Have you ever felt that kind of pain

In my heart there's just so much strain
Guess what, it's all in vain
People always say, there's no need to overthink
But they pushing me to the brink
Sometimes the only thing I need is a drink
But I don't know how to put simple on top
And every day I wind up in the same strop
Feel like my head gonna finally pop

See if you live in your mind's fantasy
Then that shit turns to reality
Makes you lose your sanity
In the end you even lose touch with humanity
Everything turns to a dream
I thought we on the same team
Guess not it would seem
You making me stand above a lonely beam
While you sit there and scheme
You turn my life to a black&white theme
Constantly feeling the opposite of supreme
Wanting my self to redeem
But the only thing I can do is daydream
While you chilling upstream
Eating some fucking ice cream
Why do I keep doing this to myself
See what it is

You can't stop thinking about the past
When someone hurts you, it turns your life into that type of contrast
Makes you feel like an outcast
And say I'm done at last
Standing on the edge of a cliff
Lighting a spliff
Feeling so damn stiff
And always wandering yo what if
What if I could change the past and be a better man
What if I had a better plan
What if I fixed myself before all of this began
What if I stood my ground instead of ran
What if
What if

That's always the question
So I'm always in session
Cant help aggression
But its the same expression
Creating obsession
Leading to depression
It's funny how irony works
It can start with a simple smile
In the end you'll walk down the same mile
Constantly asking yourself is this worthwhile
Thinking it over and over again until you reach exile
That's how your brain can affect your lifestyle
That's real life right there bro, listen to that

Overthinking creates anxiety
Makes you feel like you never want sobriety
Always acting improperly
Never getting any happiness, just a mockery
Asking myself what I need to do to be freed
My mind always answers the same thing
You already got the key
All you gotta do is agree
And be taken over by me
That brings me back to the same question
Same question yo

What if I could change the past and be a better man
What if I had a better plan
What if I fixed myself before all of this began
What if I stood my ground instead of ran
What if
What if

That's the battle we all lose on our own
It just makes me think how high we could'a flown
But me and my mind are never in the zone
And motherfucker it hurts me to my bones
Knowing I didn't have to be alone
Wishing I didn't have to atone
Even tho the answer was right under my nose
All I had to do was accept you and move on