Self Care

I wish I could
Take a breath in this mess, it's only
Counting days to the rythm of the
God damn clock supervising, ticking
Sentence me but one day I'll be free

Oh, I know
There's no way further low, Lord
Let me know
What awaits as award

I wish you found me
When it was so much, much easier
To go on, crack a smile, take a breather
I need a break but right now I'm cool with it
Imma push and avoid bullshittin'

Set the bar high
Lighters up, we touch the sky
Gotta peek a lil' before
Taking off then I'll be flying

(I'm too, I'm too, tired, I'm too, I'm too)

I'm too tired of feeling tired
Glancing at what I desire
Trying to race with a flat tire
My feet burning like it's fire

Chill, listen
I don't mean to be bitchin'
I just wanna find my place and get on glistenin'
I just wanna turn some things and make it different
Turn to flame that light that's been on flickering
Turn to truth all the scenes that I've been picturing
And then I swear from the day I can fly
I'm never gonna stop 'till the reaper comes by

I wish I could
Take a breath in this mess, it's only
Counting days to the rythm of the
God damn clock supervising, ticking
Sentence me but one day I'll be free

Oh, I know
There's no way further low, Lord
Let me know
What awaits as award

I wish you found me
When it was so much, much easier
To go on, crack a smile, take a breather
I need a break but right now I'm cool with it
Imma push and avoid bullshittin'

Set the bar high
Lighters up, we touch the sky
Gotta peek a lil' before
Taking off then I'll be flying

I think I'm gonna
Leave you here for a while, for self care
Have routines, find a spot with fresh air
Levitate 'till I can get over
Spiky wires that I built, take over
Under open sky where we all then may ally
But you gotta first make peace with yourself, your little creases

Before attempting
To go on, open eyed, discover
Colors, textures, seasons, lovers
What a crowd sounds like - it's crazy
Terrifying but you missed it, maybe
Outta from these doors, wander, look, open the drawers
It's warmer in the sun after years of rain are gone

(I'm too, I'm too, tired, I'm too)