Ooh

I am so depressed I don't know what I'm doing
I have not got a clue

I'm so fucked up
That loathsome
Idiot
(Crying) What's going on? What? (Oh my god)
Asuka please help me. I need you. Please Asuka help me
He expects the woman he abandoned to jump when he calls. Arrogant bastard
Sorry kid
You liar
Do you want to runaway or do you want to
Die, just leave me here
Death creates nothing
It's merely a part of the process freeing us all for rebirth
I'm still alive
Unimportant
Am I doing something stupid
Idiot
I'm sorry
Hey, no offence taken
Humanity is probably the only create capable of hating its own
Self
After all we've been through our final enemy is our
Cycle of hollow joy and vicious self-hatred
You hate yourself don't you, that's why you hurt others. Deep down you know you suffer
Because I don't understand anything, I'm a horrible person
Answer your own questions
But I don't know what to do
Pathetic
I thought it was better when I did nothing at all
If you sit there and do nothing then you're already dead
I thought if I came here, I would find what I was looking for
Is this better
(Gunshot)
Bye
Is this the answer, is this what I was looking for
Enough already, god you're annoying
Through the destruction of
This world
You were using fantasy to escape reality
You never understood anything
I will not be a puppet for you to control
I'm home
Please don't kill me
Why, are you scared
But you're not me, you don't know what I have to go through
So fucking what if I'm not you, that doesn't mean it's okay for you to give up
Let me hear you voice, don't leave me, I'm begging you, please care about me
I don't wanna die

(Laughter)
But uhm, I finally said, whaddya mean
And she said, This anger, where did it go
And I didn't even realize it had lifted
Now, these negative things, like anger, and depression, and sorrow, they're
Beautiful things in a story, but they're a poison to the filmmaker, they're a poison to the painter, they're a poison to creativity, they're like a vice grip
If you are super depressed you can't hardly get out of bed let alone, think ideas, have that creativity flowing
So, it's money in the bank to, get that, beautiful consciousness growing which is flowing creativity, the ability to catch ideas at a deeper level
Intuition grows, this field is a field of pure knowingness
You dive in there, you sort of just know how to go, you know how to solve solutions, it's like an ocean of solutions
And you fe- you can just feel this thing growing, but the ultimate thing for me is, the enjoyment of the doing, the enjoyment of life, grows