Sometimes

The blessing's never late so I'ma give it a raise
My daddy told me, "Happiness is somethin' that you create"
But I ain't feelin' so creative lately
I just wanna stay home and make beats or sleep for eight weeks
Either way, now my whole life feelin' cooler
Now I know the passports get thick when it's fuller
And this life thing don't really come with a ruler
Man, so I'm not trippin' that I don't still have my own jeweler, yet
In other words, I don't like to compare
I just turned twenty, but my goal's to feel twenty-eight
Without the back pain, stress and the problems in bed
Just the achievements, wisdom and a couple of friends
Until then, I'll be like movies with no plot, yeah, the bad ones
I skip the drama and get right to the action
Fuck lookin' for enemies, I got more friends than Brock Hampton
They give me honest opinions, I don't deal with the gassin', man

Feelin' like I ain't shit sometimes
I expect too much sometimes
Tell myself, "Gotta move on with life"
'Cause even Drake gets booed sometimes, ayy
I'm done livin' in disguise
That's everybody's perfect evey time
'Bouta make sure 2020 lookin' real nice
Can't depend on nobody to get myself right

And I don't know if what I'm doing's right
It feels good, so guess it's fine
You don't like it, we can fight, yeah
If you can't tell I'm done with tellin' lies
Done with tears up in my eyes
I ain't fakin' no more smiles (there you go)

It ain't a walk in the park, I prefer to run (run, run)
I don't care that I fell, I'ma make this jump (jump, jump)
Even if I don't, I became too numb (know, know)
Even if I fall, at least I'm having fun

Used to never go to the parties
Used to never wanna drink the Bacardis
Wouldn't do it if my parents allowed it
Also 'cause I used to hate when it's crowded
She told me that she ran out of condoms
Told her that I never do it without 'em
I don't wanna get too detailed about it
But we all broke a rule for somebody
Like once, twice, three times
Things don't change when you try to be wise
People still trash when you try to be nice
So don't expect me to fake any more smiles for you
I got real smiles to save
If I'm debitin' my actin', then I better get paid
'Cause this face ain't free, the lies ain't free
Matter fact, I need to get paid just to be me, but

Feelin' like I ain't shit sometimes
I expect too much sometimes
Feelin' like I forget what's mine
These lies ain't feelin' so right
I'm done livin' in disguise
That's everybody's perfect every time
'Bouta make sure 2020 lookin' real nice
Can't depend on nobody, gotta get myself right

And I don't know if what I'm doing's right
It feels good, so guess it's fine
You don't like it, we can fight, yeah
If you can't tell I'm done with tellin' lies
Done with tears up in my eyes
I ain't fakin' no more smiles (there you go)

It ain't a walk in the park, I prefer to run (run, run)
I don't care that I fell, I'ma make this jump (jump, jump)
Even if I don't, I became too numb (know, know)
Even if I fall, at least I'm having fun

I don't know if what I'm doing's right
It feels good, so guess it's fine
You don't like it, we can fight, yeah
If you can't tell I'm done with tellin' lies
Done with tears up in my eyes
I ain't fakin' no more smiles