Happy Again

It takes two hours to get out of bed
Once I'm up I think I should just crawl under it
Never speak to anyone
Why's my body heaving at the thought?
I'm back to playing dead

When I make it out the door
It's a bright day and there's music blasting
From cars that drive by and shake my bones
The earth beneath my feet
I clasp my hands for sweet relief

I wind up at a coffee shop
And press my face against the window
It's cold and it feels nice against my skin
But it's still hard to swallow
The lump that forms in my throat
The weight of getting older
And growing up alone
The likelihood this all will turn to dust

I got some shit to work through
But it's not like I'll never be happy again
I got some shine to imbue
But it's not like I'll never be happy again

Midnight
It's my favorite time to remember
All the details of my interactions
Like is she thinking of the
Stupid things I said when I was drinking?
I went to the bathroom and I threw up on my shoes
But no one noticed

Did someone notice?
Did someone notice?

I got some shit to work through
But it's not like I'll never be happy again
I got some shine to imbue
But it's not like I'll never be happy again

I got some shit to work through
But it's not like I'll never be happy again
I got some shine to imbue
But it's not like I'll never be happy again



Credits
Writer(s): Anjali Nair
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