Into My Mind, Pt. 1

Still remember everything that roams in my mind
How I felt the very first time I ever wrote down a line
When my world came crashing and I sat down and cried
A pen and paper where I could write on was the only thing I relied on
What was the purpose for me to keep on and fight on
When every single person has always tried to keep my lights off
Now I feel I should be the only one to rely on
Fuck it I'm a be the only one to turn my lights on
This is how I feel I wish you felt the same
Now a moth to the flame I just stay in my lane
I try to speak on something everyone can relate
Just so they can turn around and talk down and hate ok
But when you needed help who was there with hands out
But if I get shot I'm sure you'll leave your man down
Women fuck you and leave you and try to act the victim
That's why everything in life is now planned out
I ain't going out like this

Wake up wake up i just wanna lay you down and make up
Wake up wake up i just wanna lay you down and make up
Wake up wake up i just wanna lay you down and make up
Wake up wake up i don't wanna live in this world we made up

I'm writing in sin
I'm writing to you
Hoping you give
The time and attention whenever I spit
Depression and doubt are holding me back
I'm tired of feeling like the greatest but somehow there's always something that I lack
To you I feel like I'm not doing enough
To me I feel like I'm just running laps
I just deserve better
Wish all these women just heard better
Acted more clever and wouldn't cheat
Cause that's just something we don't compare
I need someone there
One who gon' always care
The perfect pair
When I'm tired she becomes a spare
In a world that we can't repair
So what's the deal
Tell me if this love is it real?
If it's not then it's sealed
A broken heart that will never heal
I need my words to resonate
I need my son to know his fathers great
Another man shouldn't take my place
I pray to god every night and day