Eyes

Sometimes it's better not to delete their names from your phone
You have to rather change their names
You change their names to "don't answer one, don't answer two'"

Phone ringing the only name I want it to flash
I shouldn't answer, but really I don't dwell on the past
It's just a call really how bad could it be
Went to press answer
And then I couldn't breathe
My fingers couldn't move
Something told me to stop it
I look back man I ain't never believe in no prophets
I make fun of astrology girls the fuck just happened?
It's not self control there ain't a fucking pill that I ain't poppin
Not like I don't got options
Ever since this music shit
My DMs been full
They watching me I'm on some truman shit
But we all got that one person they just know how to fuck with you
Staring at myself on the black screen
Look at my eyes
They seen bridges burn, they seen when I've hurt
They were there for me whenever you weren't
They seen all the drama
They seen all the lies
So every time you call back
I look at my eyes
My reflection like do I wanna do this again (Fuck no)
Do I wanna do this again (Fuck no)
Do I wanna do this again (Fuck no)
So look at my eyes

Lately I've given up on music it just ain't for me
Industry full of egos and and dreams it's all make belief
Family tell me to quit, this shit ain't realistic
Record label A&R just told me to feel his dick
But I can't give up yet
Nah fam I'm on a mission
To help that kid walking home wishing that he wasn't living
I just wanna make somebody feel like they not alone
Talk someone down from a ledge, make an immigrant feel at home
Cause I remember what it's like
Sitting in that school caf
Powerless watching them play soccer with my school bag
Getting my ass kicked cause some dude was tryna prove he alpha
Saying nothing just feeling stupid, couldn't stand up for my self I
Shit dawg, move your nose I can't see the sun
Shit sina, why you angry fam it's all jokes for fun
And I'm not tryna play a victim man I made my choices
But I swear to god if I don't give someone else a fucking a voice
See my friend has these pills they were meant for sleep
And he took them for sometimes I was like fuck it lemme see
I took one and an hour later shit man I'm in heaven
Close my eyes, 2 years past and I see my reflection
And I'm
And I'm just looking, looking at myself
I'm like who the fuck are you

Look at my eyes
They seen bridges burn, they seen when I've hurt
They were there for me whenever you weren't
They seen all the drama
They seen all the lies
So every time you call back
I look at my eyes
In the mirror like
Do I wanna do this again (Fuck no)
Do I wanna do this (Fuck no)
Do I wanna do this again
So look at my eyes
Do I wanna do this again
Do I wanna do this
Could I go through this again
Please don't do this again