Intro

How's this over aready before it even started
I finally learnt to love not with my head
But with my heart again
And the chance that I took lost a couple of friends
But then again, if they were friends
Would've accepted understandably

Luckily, no family
If I came out, would the black side be mad at me?
Imagining my dad's brown eyes while he frowns at me
All for this girl, and I'm still here writing her rhapsody

So here I'm sitting in my room, heartbroken, fucking hurting
Putting too much love and time into one person
What an excursion, every right to be nervous
We're dealing with no purpose, every right to be assertive
For them to understand, they need to know how it started
How I met this light skin girl at this party

And not once have I questioned before my sexuality
Not once have I considered
The thought labelled artificiality by society
Held my head high and fucking labelled it spontaneity
Girl, the way I felt for you
Gradually grew to more than just carnality
Same career path, I'm in a fictional reality

If I can take this on, I'm unstoppable
I'm in this race faced with different minor obstacles
Like talks behind my back, lost friends, and fake love
Words are such like, do you really, really hate God?

I like men, but I like girls too, and I'm admitting it
So tell me really what makes me and you so different?
Was it no sex before marriage in the commandments?
Ha, yeah, guess you're a sinner too!
So fall the fuck back and let's start re-examining
So drawn into my life, man, they need to start patterning

Take time and just freeze like a mannequin
I can't breathe like the strangling
You started chatting me, yeah
No lie, you started getting me gassed
It's feeling normal when you hit me up
I know that's my girl, I'ma respect you like a lover
Yeah, you know that's Miguel

Ha, fuck this carousel, I want to see you again
Going in circles, why you playing
When you're more than a friend, girl?
And I don't want this to end, girl
I tell you loving you is more than a trend

Naturally next now's the time for division
The time for decision, the reason for recision
'Cause nothing ever lasts
Everybody's greedy, prick paying visits back to your past
Why's your ex still in the way?
Like are you missing all your memories?

I get it, sex marks the ex like Treasury
Last night, you gave me neck
I guess you're there just for accessory
Unfair games and no referee, we're playing it by my rules
I'm turning spiteful, argued every time you spoke
'Cause when I spoke you professed
To comprehend my views of impediments

Ooh you, girl, you're trying to test
I'm disrespecting, getting stressed, hence why I'm cursing you out
Moving reckless cursed your ex continue to mocking you clowns
So everybody knew about TicTac and Tramp
And how Tramp used TicTac just to drive her around ha

Shitty little liars
Fuck, you think you're Bonnie and Clyde?
So I had the bitch pulling up to my bumper
Next day Snapchat, I went and burnt the bitch's jumper
What messes me around ain't what's meant for me
Unnecessary arguments and stress
More stress, less trust, and jealousy
Mitigate through music, my alone time is therapeutic

I would've been fucked up way more than mentally
So here's my remedy for perplexity
Clear my head and give me
Some sense of supremacy depended on
Say you won't let go, go
Fuck it, man, I don't trust these hoes