Righteous Leader (In the Circus of Eden)

I can't pretend
That I'm okay with this
But I'll pretend
So you don't leave me again

Funny story you told me this morning over coffee
Well not really
Always talkin' how it's boring
And nothing in life is exciting enough anymore

You're pessimistic at best
Smell a flower and wish it was dead
You just wish it was dead

Cut my neck with your sword
You faithful soldier
Yeah, you're a righteous leader you know

You told me everything in life was made up
And everything has got an explanation
Nothing in life can ever hurt us
But how can that be?

When my mind is the circus
Well that sure could hurt us

Put me in a cage
Whip me into shape
Train me 'till you know
I'll be the best in show

Put my saddle on
Ride me all night long
'Cuz when the morning comes
I know you'll be gone

When you're done
And I'm hung
You're always late
While I wait in my cage

And why the face?
Spray it with mace
When I'm in rage

And set me free
'Cuz I'm not me
When I can't see

Come fall off the bridge with me
Yeah we could see things
We've never seen before
Feel the water touch your skin
The way that I did before
You're tying weights to your ankles boy
When they weren't there before

You're such an illusion
You're trying to play it so brave
Why don't you step to my door then dear?
Why don't you say it to my face?

You're pickin' up the phone
Trying to tell me I'm on my own
It's not you it's me
I like to live a little bit unhappily

You're narcissistic at best
You kinda wish you were dead
You cannot get past all your childhood resentment

So gun it 44
And go 40 more
Drink 'till you pass out
And stop knocking at my door

At my door
And give me more
What I'm asking for

You righetous leader
Go tell her you need her
With your double edged sword

You fooled me once
You fooled me twice
Oh I could use some ice for this burn

But that's what I get
For letting you in my head
Into my big, bad circus