Self Made

Been reflecting a lot on decision I made in the past
I was moving to fast
Speaking to people that's hurting my ego just so that the memories last
Look in the mirror I'm seeing a stranger stairing at me through the glass
Another persona that must have apprear while focused on chasing a bag
I'm losing myself I know I can tell, but there be nobody lending a hand
Emotions arise while I step to the side the grief about losing my Dad
He knew I was great from the day of my birth I'm blessed to have met such a man
But I'm never as sure as he was even though I was discussing my plans

All the same
Remembering days where we dreamt about planes
You left me alone got me going insane
Surround by people that don't know the pain
They say it get better, but don't like the rain
I know that's I've change they don't like the change
How I've been acting they hating my way
Taking it all just keep it away
All the emotions I'm holding inside I'm worried I won't see the day
That my Sis changes the world as we know it there's nobody up in her lane
I'm proud of you don't say it much, but just know to me you'll be one of the greats
I love you forever just know if you need me I'll never be too far away

All this around me I did it alone
Had people who help but it's me in my zone
The records I'm making don't let me go home
But it's bigger than that if you let me go on
Out for a night and the city will know so I move with a strap for the people I don't
B negative blood but I'm trying to coupe so I pour up the drank and I roll up a zo
The rumours I hear tales to be told, but I'm never surprised by those that are close
There are things I could say, but I don't like to boast
Cause father taught me about other the most
Sipping to much got me feeling afloat if drown in the drank I won't feel anymore
You're an opp as an opp I don't work as joke
But laughing too much in these endz get you smoked

Shorty on my mind the time is getting closer
Loving on my homies now I act like I don't know her
Still be in Kariba bitch I'm sipping on mimosas
Time they can be wavey when I'm whipping in my rover

All the same a nigga got chains, but the main aim is to switch lanes while it's colder
Solo, but don't test me cause when its war time
Got the whole gang 4L with the strap holstered up on the shoulder
Shorty fine she a Kylie, but no astro I ain't Travis
Can't have no Stormys running round the crib tryna hold her
Big steppa size 13, nah I'm playing I'm 10 that's what shorty said
When I told her I don't wanna get to know her