Pieces

This chapter of my life is finished
From the concrete, grew a rose
Days feel like minutes
Without you they just come and go
And even through betrayal
I belived in us, I still had hope
You tore me into pieces
What's left of me?
A broken soul
I learned to put myself first
I had to push you in the past
I tried to slit my wrist
But god gave me a second chance
I survived your love
And now there ain't no looking back
But I'm only human
I have to make the image last
I turn pain into poetry
All the lies that you told to me
Made me finally realize
You were finished and over me
Why was I so naive?
So easy to manipulate?
So hypnotized by you?
I mean I wasn't even thinking straight
You murdered who I was
You got blood on your hands
That won't ever wash away
I hope you understand
You left me for the wolves
You took that happiness I had
What happened to those promises
The future we had planed?

Dealing with that aftermath
Brought me to my lowest point
When I close my eyes
I could see your face and hear your voice
I'm just trying to find a way
To heal myself and fill this void
There's no other option
No decisions left
I have no choice
Pressure creates diamonds
I redefined my identity
This music is my outlet
Where I channel all my energy
My peace and serenity
It's how people will remember me
I'll always be a part of you
I'll be your darkest memory

You were so toxic
Our love was chaotic
I turn on narcotics
To ease all the pain
I couldn't stop it
I could've just lost it
But through all of the trauma
I finally changed
Fuck all the drama
And fuck what I wanted
The feeling is gone
I'm no longer the same
Everything could've been perfect
But not you, deserve to be lonely
And live in this shame
Thank you for leaving me
You never needed me
You would repeatedly
Tell me to stay
What did I see in you?
I regret meeting you
How did I deal with you everyday?
What did I mean to you?
Bitch I would dream of you
Now I'm so glad you went runnin' away
I should've listened
When everyone told me
That you weren't the one
And this' only a phase

It was over before it started
No happily ever after
Endless conversations and none of 'em even matter
Every kiss was poisoning, illusion
You were cancer
I was too obsessed
I should've noticed all the patterns
Our fate is intertwined
You're just as lost as me
In purgatory suffering
We're somewhere in between
You created distance
So of course, I'm out of reach
You got what you wanted
And that was a common theme
You could be replaced
But first I need some time to fucking breathe
I need space, my damaged brain
Is full of things I can't delete
I wrote this song about you
Even though I know it's obsolete
I can't put trust in someone else
That's one mistake I won't repeat