Sugar and Fill

What I said, what I said, when I said it
I mean it, I meant it
I'll never mistreat it, abuse it or beat it again
Here I am, hat in hand, once again
Bleeding and beating my chest
In a show of disgust and mistrust as your friend

Warning bell, hear it well, what the hell?
It's there just for this but I
Cave to the kiss and the whistling wind through my shell
Sew me up, cut me out, scream and shout
Spit I betrayed you, I
Spit back I gave you the means to rely on yourself (And we're both wrong)

Cold night, warm stars 'bove my head
Cold hands, warm heart, so they said...

4 AM, feeling ill, take a pill, nothing real just
Sugar and fill in my gut
Can't throw up this disdain for myself
Set alarms, three or four, out the door, hit the floor
Running and I can't keep tripping up the same set of steps
I've fallen up before

Can't keep falling up, falling up, falling
Can't keep falling back, falling back, falling
Can't keep falling in, falling in, falling in, falling in love

Cold night, warm stars 'bove my head
Cold hands, warm heart, so they said...
Cold night, warm stars 'bove my head
Cold hands, warm heart, so I said...