One Eye Open

Every night is the same, toss and turn in your sleep
You can run all you like but at night when you dream
No escape from the memories, thoughtforms and fiends
That hide in plain sight in life's patterns and themes

Haunted by traumas you
Subconsciously bottle they
Run rampant macabre and masked in your brain
They wear many faces they
Chase you through mazes and
Terrorize you in a cruel masquerade

Did you really believe you could get over me?
Every mistake you make is a reflection of me
Try to steer clear of vice, I'm a threat you don't see
I'm an impulse hard-coded in your anatomy

Half-asleep, one eye open, now you can't relax
In that inbetween state, caught in transit, your trapped
Psychopomp of subconscious, sleep paralysis racked
In my webs of deceit your intuition is wrapped

It's so disappointing how you wilt on the vine
Seeded fields that were barren like pearls before swine
Dodgy progeny of folly, what a waste of my time
Should have ended you before you had a chance to survive

A widow in wait,
Through your window I spy
Caustic spite in my fangs
Prey to catch you're a fly

From my perch I descend
With such gossamer steps
Quick and silent I stalk
Sink my teeth in your neck

Sick from my venom,
Your heart fear inhibits
Your will and resolve
They dissolve by the minute

Your judgement now clouded
Your third eye gone blind
I bludgeon your dreams
With the book of divine

A she-devil warping the verses of god
I claim to be pious but I serve Chernobog
My whispers bewitching your now fevered mind
Every word offers madness, your health in decline

Tell me your defenses - I will disable them
I know all of your weaknesses, bitch I created them
I murdered your god so there's no need to pray to him
Give me your fears, I'm their source, I'm reclaiming them

You moved out the city and fell off the map,
Changed your phone and address but it's just a stopgap
Told yourself you weren't damaged but boy that's all cap
You can kill your old self but can't outrun your past

Doomed to the cycle, stuck living parodies
Play out your past and it's frankly embarrassing
Scornful acceptance this is where you suppose to be
Burn all your bridges as if their our effigies

Becoming reclusive, a shut-in that's festering
Don't risk putting trust into anyone or anything
Board up your windows and lock all your doors
Paranoia sets in, there's no way to ignore

We will never be proud, you were never enough
We told you that we loved you but then you called our bluff
You thought you could let go of us as you grew up
But that need for acceptance will always catch up

Look at your enemies, look at your friends
They all wear our colors, there's no use to pretend
You think you can leave us but we infect all you know
Under every relationship we're buried below

It's so disappointing how you wilt on the vine
Seeded fields that were barren like pearls before swine
Dodgy progeny of folly, what a waste of my time
Should have ended you before you had a chance to survive

My darling, my pupil, you'll never get rid of me
You can still hear my voice when you speak in soliloquy
Your sense of rebirth is just mental chicanery
No matter how far you run I'm still in your periphery

When it comes to significance, there's no comparison
I roll in my grave, but it's your dirt that I'm buried in
I made you, to think you're above me is arrogant
You call me hysterical now claim your inheritance

Deadhead the failure, he's aged out of bloom
From a bud full of promise to a dud prime to prune
Pickled punk aged in brine has gone sour in time
A vestigial freak doomed to fail by design

Examine the specimen
Notice the deficits
His mars is suspended
And moon is in detriment
Not the heir that we wanted to carry our name
My spawn, my descendent brings me nothing but shame

You moved out the city and you fell off the map
Changed your phone and address but it's just a stopgap
Told yourself you weren't damaged but boy that's all cap
You can kill your old self but can't outrun your past