Be Mine?

On the phone leaving you
Don't really know what to do
I don't wanna let you go
But you've really hurt me so
I just have to say goodbye for now

I'm so mad but you're so calm
I dig my nails into my palm
I'm crying on my closet floor
But you're giving me nothing more than
Empty apologies
And your eyes are dry somehow

And even though I'm at a crossroads
Of whether I should scream or let go
I want nothing more than to see you

All I wanted was for you to hold me closer
Now all I want is you to give me closure
I thought that you were caring and kind
But now you've gone and lost all your shine
I see you now
But I still want you to be mine

I took a breath and called my friends
I didn't think that this would end
We both had said that we weren't done
A break can always be undone
Nothing lasts forever
The best things can go rotten

But then later you texted me
You said you never loved me
You said that we were too fast-paced
That you just wanted to retrace
What's in the past is past
But it can't be forgotten

I don't know why I'm at a crossroads
Cause clearly I should just let you go
How come I just really wanna see you?

All I wanted was for you to hold me closer
Now all I want is you to give me closure
Is there emotion somewhere inside?
Were you even sad?
Did you even cry?
I see you now
But I still want you to be mine

I never thought that I would have you
But did I really ever have you?
What's in the past can sit on a shelf
But the layers of dust don't reflect on myself
I really wanted this to work out
But now you're someone else

All I wanted was for you to hold me closer
Now all I want is you to give me closure
Your kind and sweet and humbled outside
Was hiding something I couldn't find
I see you now
Oh I see you now
Oh I see you now
But I still want you to be mine