Hopeless

Shit getting twisted in this life I live
How I got baby momma drama
I ain't got no kids
Fighting addictions
Never sober that's just how it is
Sometimes I feel like I'd be better off
Just do the bid
My father told me life was hard
But he ain't mention this
Never imagined that my father's genes
Would ever fit
Told myself that I could be a better man
But shit
It's like they always fucking say
Boy you yo daddy's kid
Petty cases
Got me tied up in this litigation
Paid for my lawyer, Court date came
his seat was vacant
Still facing jury trial
Feels like I gotta start to face it
I might just take the fucking time
Cause I'm tired of cases
Every time I see that sack
It's like I gotta chase it
Move them bags in and out
That's the risk I'm taking
If they catch me with this half
I'll probably never make it
They gon give me half of life
If I try to race em

And It's like I everything I do
Just feeling hopeless
I can't find my blessings
Can't remember where my hope is
Seems like everyday
I just been going through the motions
Mama still ain't got it
Lately I been losing focus
I've been fighting hard Lord
But you already know this
Devil tryna tempt me
And his words is getting potent
Still I'm praying everyday
That I know where that smoke is
Them drugs'll keep me high
Just to balance out my lowness

I'm getting high up on the E-way
Hop in the truck, I tune it up
And hit the speed race
This little bitch just want to fuck
To get some cheese cake
She blow me up, to get in touch
So we can speed date
Back to her spot,
Cause I can't let her know where we stay
She get the drop
Then ima hit her with the mean fade
If she like Cardi
Then I'll never hit the replay
I know it's fucked,
I'm still gon eat her like some cheesesteak
In this world
man I can't trust a soul
Niggas just stab you in the back
That shit been getting old
Pocket watching wanna know
About the shit I sold
Talk out they neck behind my back
And think they being bold
But I ain't getting into that
I keep my circle closed
If you ain't getting to the bag
Then you just gotta go
Keep an eye out for them snakes
That want to see me low
Got good hands, call they bluff
And ima make em fold

But It's like I everything I do
Just feeling hopeless
I can't find my blessings
Can't remember where my hope is
Seems like everyday
I just been going through the motions
Mama still ain't got it
Lately I been losing focus
I've been fighting hard Lord
But you already know this
Devil tryna tempt me
And his words is getting potent
Still I'm praying everyday
That I know where that smoke is
Them drugs'll keep me high
Just to balance out my lowness