Pity Party

I woke up in a new bed today
It's my own, I guess, but it doesn't feel that way
I'm so tired of the jet lag, I thought it was a hoax
This grown up shit is getting old
And I miss my mom, she thinks I'm doing well
She tells me that I'm better off by myself
That I don't need anyone
But really

I'm scared of being lonely, my clothes are always dirty
I can't get enough coffee, what can you do?
There's dirt on my white shoes, I live in a living room
And I'm so scared to call you
But I'm throwing a party and no, it's not a pity party
If you don't like it, just leave, I don't need your pity
I just want a party

And I know I seem like a lot right now
Both my socks and my pride are nowhere to be found
I guess this is just 20, I always feel like a joke
And it gets worse or that's what I'm told
Oh, I miss my friends, they pray I'm doing well
Maybe one day I'll be better off by myself
And I won't need anyone
But for now (now)

I'm scared of being lonely, my clothes are always dirty
I can't get enough coffee, what can you do?
There's dirt on my white shoes, I live in a living room
And I'm so scared to call you
But I'm throwing a party and no, it's not a pity party
If you don't like it, just leave, I don't need your pity
I just want a party

Party, I just want a party
I just want, just want
(I just want, want)
I just want a party
I just want, just want
I just want a party