Losing My Life

I dont dream when I sleep
Ive never been a dreamer
And these tears on my lips
Never tasted sweeter
Wanna drown it all beneath
Bumping music on the speaker
Tryna fight my pain away
But Ive only been getting deeper

Only mistaken about
The way I saw the future
Never thought id ever fail
Now my life is losing humor
Trying to fit in with the crowd
Like Im following a rumor
Ive been living here for years
But I still feel like an intruder

Im living life period
Im always certain
I block emotion
But I can still feel a disturbance
Feel like Im losing my life
But I stay calm up on the surface
Living in the worl
But I still havent found my purpose

Feeling nervous
Maybe Im just walking circles
I fight and I fight
But I keep getting evil urges
What the hell is going on
I keep swerving like Im nervous
Every day I make effort
But every night Im feeling worthless

I dont know what imma do
I feel like Im gonna lose
My life
I feel like Im losing my life

I dont know what imma do
I feel like Im gonna lose
My life
I feel like Im losing my life

My life was not
What I expected to be
No
I never did
What was expected of me
I know I fell off
I think I fell too hard
Cuz Im reminded every day
When I look at my scars

Like every single struggle I fought
Cut into my heart
Before I knew it
My character was already lost
Doing street hustle business
Thought Id never get caught
Ducking under bridges quick
To run away from the cops

Living quick and real young
But Id be feeling older
But I cant even trust a person
I keep checking my shoulder
Need to slow down
So I could breathe
And anchor my grip
Cuz at night I barely get by
I want to just quit

And sail ship
Forget this
Ill never be free
Even when I sail away
Im falling into the deep
Whats the point of even trying
When I cant even sleep
If youe really there God
Then bring me back to my feet

I dont know what imma do
I feel like Im gonna lose
My life
I feel like Im losing my life

I dont know what imma do
I feel like Im gonna lose
My life
I feel like Im losing my life

Defeated by the struggle
Im tricked by the deceiver
My strength is running low
And everyday Im getting weaker
Burying my faults
Like Im using a concealer
Ive never been a devil
But Ive never been a preacher

Only trying to reach you
Hit you so I can teach you
Not trying to impeach you
Look at the bigger picture
Im trying to instill in you faith
To take with you
Im know that Im poor
But I aint ever been richer

Learned from the scripture
Had to learn the shit fast
Cuz my life is always burning away
It dont last
Never thought Id be alive
Or kicking today
After every single time
I almost called it day

Its called faith
The reason Im alive today
Its my strength
Keeping me aligned and brave
Its not hate
I know that imma be ok
Its my fate
To battle or just be enslaved
Thats my faith

I dont know what imma do
I feel like Im gonna lose
My life
I feel like Im losing my life

I dont know what imma do
I feel like Im gonna lose
My life
I feel like Im losing my life