Idioglossia (Anniversary Mix 2020)

(It all comes back to me)
(It all comes back to me)
(It all comes back to me)
(It all comes back to me)

Face to the floor, heart in my mouth
My forehead hits the pavement
Again! Numb again
Sharing this humility
A circle of humanity
Momentarily black in me
Immomentarily black
So black

(Memory leave me be) When outcome is preceded
By an outlet that is needed
We tend to forget all but the circle
(Close that eye leave love blind) As soon as the ends have met
As soon as the ends have met

(I scratch the surface and see)
Someone better than me
(I scratch the surface and see)
Where did I suffer that loss?
What was taken from me?

As you walk through the ashes
Remember my name
As you walk through the ashes
As you walk through the ashes
Remember the shame!
Whisper my name!

This blood proves me right
In that the last move is all that counts if the beasts must bite
Vow to the floor, oath to the taste of dust
In my mouth– never!
I bite the words: never again!
Will I let anyone else finish?
I'll be the end of every way

(Memory let it die, left behind) Kneeling in whirlpools of pink champagne
(Leaving me blind) Celebrating the bravery of my pain
(Memory let it die, left behind) Something broke and no water could ever wash
(Leaving me blind) The anger from that first stain

I scratched the surface to find
Someone wicked and blind
(I scratched the surface to find)
Where did it come to that end?
Why can't these scars ever mend?

(Memories)
I have swallowed all these tears
(Memories) Thought they'd be gone after all these years
Now this heart is waking up
(Memories) With a new hunger for my own blood

As I search through the ashes for someone to blame
I'm afraid to see my face
As I walk through the ashes, I whisper your name
Meeting you have forced me to meet myself

(It all comes back to me)
(It all comes back to me)
(It all comes back to me)
(It all comes back to me)

Face to the ground, heart in their mouth
Foreheads hit the pavement
Again! Numb again!
Sharing my hostility
A street full of insanity
This is payback for every tear in me, hole in me
Black in me! Black!

For every time you froze me out
For every punch every shout
For not believing in me
For your stupidity
For stealing what could have been
Me!

Despite all these words
Not one could express
What I had inside
Living was to hide!

Despite all these words
Not one could express
What I had inside
Living was to hide!

Despite all these words
Not one could express
What I had inside
Living was to hide!

Despite all these words
(It all comes back to you)