Can't Be Here Again

Mirror of a photograph
Stained glass shadowed epitaph
Reading of times come to pass
Where once your self stood too

Dusty rabbits traipse the ground
Their footprints covered by a mound
Of soot that does not make a sound
Unlike the ghost of you

Specter hovers above the floor
The cut out shape of silence more
Than I can take, how I deplore
Remnants of what I rue

I can't return
I can't escape
Outside or in
I see your face
And just when it seems gone
You occupy my room
You occupy my mind
You occupy my sight
You occupy my time
And you're not even here

Corners of a hazy place
Mementos of long gone days
Thickets overgrown with distaste
They're plaguing what I see

Black ice under a wheelchair
Slipping hard down frozen stairs
Till its contents are laid bare
When out falls me

Severed links of iron, wrought
Cut by criminals you've taught
That break chains to forge we've fought
And plea to get out free

I can't return
I can't escape
Outside or in
I see your face
And just when it seems gone
You occupy my room
You occupy my mind
You occupy my sight
You occupy my time
And you're not even here

Twigs fall freely from the nest
Brooms stand still at my behest
Self imposing house arrest
But this time I'm alone

Deathbed of our pillow talks
Praying simply to out-walk
The circling of overhead hawks
To shelter, I will go

Out of breath from running far
From problems, like a house of horrors
Reflection's a funhouse, bizarre
My face I do not know

The memories from who knows when
Just sharpen knives of butchering
That carve up reminiscent men
Who seek the past as denizens
But I can't be here again

I can't return
I can't escape
Outside or in
I see your face
And just when it seems gone
You occupy my room
You occupy my mind
You occupy my sight
You occupy my time
And you're not even here
You're not even here
Why does it feel like
You're still
Here?