Alone Again

Now I'm alone again
After thinking that I'd never be alone again
Now I'm alone again
After thinking that I'd never be alone again

I woke up this morning in a house not a home
I woke up this morning I was all on my own
Since I woke up this morning I don't know what I'm doing
I been all in my dome
Everything is unknown
Wonder if she'll cooperate and stay away
How do I operate on the day to day?
And least last night I didn't lay awake
I freed myself of the anxiety I couldn't shake
But new anxieties that vie for taking its place
And make me feel ashamed of throwing shade are always taking shape
I swear I do my best to never give em space
But I feel like I'm gonna break
Sometimes I need a break for goodness sake
I'll just say it
I'm feeling really scared
All this working on my spirit's really working on my spirit

Now I'm alone again
After thinking that I'd never be alone again
Now I'm alone again
After thinking that I'd never be alone again
Now I'm alone again
After thinking that I'd never be alone again
Now I'm alone again
After thinking that I'd never be alone again

Couple specifics and details
I've been deleting pictures and emails
And texts
And trying not to feel stressed
each moment not knowing what's next
In truth I didn't know what's next before
but having her arm around my neck would help me rest assured
But now that ship has left the shore
For sure
I hope she don't feel that I don't love her no more
I hope she don't feel she's not worthy of love
Might have had a shot at keeping her trust
If I hadn't been so worried about all the above
But
None of that helps me now
Being that I done gone and messed around
And met my wife I built a life of days and nights of care around
To then proceed to tear it down

Now I'm alone again
After thinking that I'd never be alone again
I'm all alone again
After thinking that I'd never be alone again
Now I'm alone again
After thinking that I'd never be alone again
Now I'm alone again
After thinking that I'd never be alone again

Frontline without no shield
It is way deeper than preparing my own meals
But daily I'm reminded
at least she won't put my stuff away
someplace where I won't find it
Still often times I think of life and wish I could rewind it
back before I lost it 'fore I had to find it
I wouldn't be despondent
Being happy is the object
I could always learn the way to make a omelet
I fear she's the last of the cuties
that won't only do me for diamonds and rubies
and stuff
And I got no one to go to the movies wit
but maybe I been going to the movies too much
And plus I'm dag near forty
But thinking that way feels so corny
Imma just try to enjoy myself
But this is not where I saw myself

Alone again
After thinking that I'd never be alone again
Now I'm alone again
After thinking that I'd never be alone again
Now I'm alone again
After thinking that I'd never be alone again
Now I'm alone again
After thinking that I'd never be alone again