Stay Positive

I'm trying to be positive
And I'm failing

Hi, question
How the hell'd I get here?
Counting calories on the boxes
In the frozen pizza aisle
And thoroughly hating myself
Cause a little while back
Maybe in November
I think I got fat
All I can remember
Is seeing myself in a mirror
And feeling profoundly sad
So maybe if I drop a few pounds
It will fix all of that

Stay positive
And everything will work out like it should
Stick to the plan
Find something to believe in
And believe in it 'til your dead
And that's how it ends

I was in a Wal-Mart the other day
Buying Cheez-Its and a tire and a new duvet
When a man let out a superfluous sigh
"Why does everything cost more?"
He said with great lament
And when I mentioned trade wars
He glossed over it
And blamed it on immigrants
I fell speechless and yeah, I was mad
He walked away
And that was that

Stay positive
And everything will work out like it should
Stick to the plan
Find someone you believe in
Hope you go before they do
You do what you can

I'm just wondering
If a good head space
Is all it takes
Just tell yourself an itty bitty lie
What if it doesn't work?
What if losing weight won't stop self hate
And some people just need
To fuck off and die?

Stay positive