Open Your Eyes

So then I told her
You wanna go to war act like a soldier
I'm dipping right now till I'm old like Whitey Bulger
I'll repent in my nineties and hopefully get some closure
Avoid the friction, bitter like Folgers
My position, crossed oceans
For addiction, to new cultures
I've been drinking, don't tell the others
May be haram, but what's the harm
And another one will come
As sure as the day brings sun
All I wanna do is live my life not tied down and have fun
I refuse to be undone by anyone even you hun
So till I lay cold and old don't even mention my fucking son
And by then he might like me
To be honest its more than likely
Time heals all wounds and with some space he might love me so slightly
As long as he don't fight me
Well
Will you write me

Do you think about me
Do you hear my voice
Know its me naturally
Never cross your mind do I Papi
Would you recognise me

Born with hate for you imbued old man
And I'll never shake that off old man
So it's best that you steer clear goddamn
I never wanna see that face of yours in the flesh old man
You'll never see how much I've grown
Cause that needs time with me spent and known
I don't need you for me to find my home
The motherland which you don't own
I built myself Nusu and proud and draped in gold
I stand alone in understanding this
Grandad was good but what he know of living black in this abyss
Built me up with love and care but that don't stop the pain and fits
Treated me like a white kid when I need know the truth of it
That don't cross your mind since you got married and had your new kid
I pray you care for her better than me you know just what you did
You know just what you did

I was formed half love and half through spite
Untethered now I'm free to live my life
No perceptions shall stop me from taking flight
My flight