Promise

In a world that's full of hope, why am I alone?
Had this feeling so long, my serotonin's gone
Even when I get high, why do I feel so low?
Never good at goodbyes, I hold on

I hate the man I see when I see myself
A reflection of hell, yeah

I told myself it's different, it's so hard to believe
I know that I won't change, so I sold another dream
All the lives I told are burning holes inside
And I don't, I don't know why
I broke a promise to myself

As I stand here again all covered in mud
And I'm drenched in my sins
What have I become?
I said the last time, that would be my last time
Not good at goodbyes, I hold on

If I jumped off this ledge, would you catch my fall?
Would you care at all?

I told myself it's different, it's so hard to believe
I know that I won't change, so I sold another dream
All the lives I've told are burning holes inside
And I don't, I don't know why
I broke a promise to myself

All the stages of shaken
All the roads that I've taken
Wondering if I can really make it
Feeling so depressed, I've been humbled and humiliated
All the truth I've mistaken for the things I thought saved me
It's like nobody knows
At any given second, I feel like I might explode

I told myself it's different, it's so hard to believe
I know I'll never change, I sold another dream
All the lives I've told are burning holes inside
And I don't, I don't know why

And I don't, I don't know why
I broke a promise to myself