New Woke Deal

Making my way to his house
At 8pm what good could come?
Secretly I knew myself
Hesitated on that road
Then convinced myself that I could go

I loved the way he made me feel
Physically holding me
Fed my pride & gave me chills but

Does he really got it to be offering? Huh?
Loving you leaves me numb
Caught up in my own demise
Ain't even notice that I'd closed my eyes

Life it got the upper hand
Caught me when I turned my back
Held me till I couldn't breath
Deception hid by honesty

Ignoring that small voice
And letting yours grows loud
In this life we're blessed with choice
But blessings fade when i choose hell

Do you really got it to be offering? No
Loving you leaves me numb
Caught up in my own demise
Ain't even notice that I'd closed my eyes

Now I be on some woke deal
This world be on its own, feel me?
Wont put my loss before the fear of God
Fearing my loss more than I fear my God?
Wow

5 years of friendship was finished
On the night that we did it
It was more my fault than yours
Cuz why'd I get myself in this

Sadness evoked from misplaced hope
Showed you it all then got ghosted
Crazy naive, acted a joke for you

Now I be on some woke deal
This world be on its own, feel me?
Wont put my life before the fear of God
Fearing my loss more than I fear my God?
Wow

Now I be on some woke deal
This world be on its own, feel me?
Wont put my life before the fear of God
I shoulda knew better

Prayed for me & read with me
Grateful for community
kammy, James & Bri you
Led me when I couldn't see