Survival

At a young age I was fighting demons it was kind of scary
My momma turning 38 and she still ain't married
That falling for a nigga shit it be kinda scary
All this weight on my shoulders getting hard to carry

I use to smoke weed a lot to subdue my pain
But all these voices in my head getting to my brain
My peoples love me but don't show it "why y'all acting strange?"
I tell my siblings that I love em they don't say the same

Antasia she my lil sister so I got her back
Antonio on honor roll so he good at math
So if I need a double check he gone count my stack
Through everything he loyal to me I can give him that

Khamari fucking up in school he don't get good grades
I swear I'll give away my life just to see him change
But that nigga smart asl so ion know what's wrong
All the shit that bring me pain is put into this song

I never thought I'd make it to see another day
Since 11 I thought heaven was the only way
Because I already been through hell many times before to
The point where my pain basically gets ignored

I'm from the struggle, the hustle, the suffering
Who would've thought surviving hell would've made me the man I am
Today I stand tall reminiscing about my life every thing I lost,
Everything I taught, but in sight

It was magic kind of tragic
Some of this shit it turned me savage
Made me insane all I was looking for is love when all I had was pain
I lost myself before my eyes but didn't see the change

I just been stuck here reminiscing bout the opposition
It be the niggas on yo side don't wanna see you winning
We lost Violet few years later her son locked in prison
It be those killers and robbers tryna write yo ending

In this game of survival you can't skip the scrimmage
Cuz soon as you arrive you meet the supervillains
It be those killers and robbers tryna write yo ending
In this game of survival you can't skip the scrimmage
You meet the supervillains