You're Not Alone

Just let me down
Don't let me down gently
Just let me down
Don't let me down gently

I feel so alone these days
Lost myself along this way
If it gets worse, then I might need change
Does anybody out there feel the same?

I just wanna go back to the world I was livin' in
Back when I wasn't focused on the money or the dividends
Back when life was so simple, but right now I been drownin'
Yeah, my circle gets smaller with every comma
Had to cut off some people, don't want the drama

All the snakes in my path, and they're so dishonest
Tried to give 'em a plate, but they're in my pockets
I don't want this
I don't want this life
Sometimes, I want off this ride
Sometimes, I don't even wanna try
Sometimes, I'm

Searchin' for answers that I'll never get
Like why was it so hard to try to exist?
Why was it better when I was a kid?
When I saw traumas I'd try to forget

Man, I was 13 when I saw my mom get choked out
Called 911, then I broke down
Got too much pain, never wrote down
Let it built 'till that breakdown backstage in London

Hard to predict when the pain is comin'
Push it all down 'til I can not stomach it
Cannot run from it, down 'till everything hurts
I don't wanna think that it might get worse
'Cause if it gets worse I don't know what'll happen
I might end up hurtin' me 'til my pulse flattens
Until then, I'm focused on all of my passions, I'm losin' my way

Lost in my mind now
I don't know, but my head hurts
I'm not gettin' better
I'm not changin'

Drownin' in the deep end
Voices callin', I can see them
I've been drownin' in the deep end
Voices callin', I can see them

Anxiety ridden
That's how I been livin'
Distract myself, that's why I been driven
I don't wanna think about the things that make me weak

Down this rabbit hole 'til I can leave
Down until my brain feels obsolete
Wish I didn't view the world so bleak
Always wear my issues on my sleeves, like

You think that you're on the right path 'til
One thing goes wrong and your vision goes black
Your body goes numb, and you think on the past
You think on your life and when things all went bad

It follows no matter the place
Changin' location, just picks up the pace
Thought it'd be safe when I sold out a stage
That's when the demons caught up to the race
Grip me by the neck, and then pulled me back down again
Seein' childhood traumas that I relive

I was half asleep at like 12 a.m.
Sister's ex-boyfriend breakin' in
He beat up my sister, I wanted to murder him
But I was too young to be hurtin' him
That's not rage any child should feel
That's not pain that ever does heal

Lost, and I'm losin my mental
I'm thinkin' this life is another cruel riddle
That I'll never solve
Dealin' with issues that I can't resolve

When things lookin' up, I just wait for the fall
Scared that it's holdin' me back
Wanna move on, but I'm chained to the past
This prison depression, I'm on the attack
That's why I been stuck in this trap, yeah

Don't wanna complain, but I never wanna step foot on stage
Every time I do, I relive pain
'Cause I got sad songs so ingrained
I relive all of my scars and how I got 'em
It's revealin' me
Relive all the worst parts of my life, and it's been killin' me

Lost in my mind now
I don't know, but my head hurts
I'm not gettin' better
I'm not changin'

Drownin' in the deep end
Voices callin', I can see them
I've been drownin' in the deep end
Voices callin', I can see them

Drownin' in the deep end
Voices callin', I can see them
I've been drownin' in the deep end
Voices callin', I can see them

Just let me down
Don't let me down gently
Just let me down
Don't let me down gently