Flowerboy

These late nights are crazy I've been thinking about my past
Like I always got mad every time I came in last
Now they just lessons all I do is just laugh
Like I'm looking in the mirror and I ain't seeing nun special
My ambitions too strong so you know I gotta move
I was always just a dreamer I didn't know what to do
Use to watch the stars at night while inhaling the fumes
Now I'm making big steps watch me fly to the moon, hey

Can't afford to fall asleep
Ay
Ay
Cause my family gotta eat
Ay
Ay
They depending on me
So I'm taken everything but ya money on me
Ay
Ay
Can't afford to fall asleep
Ay
Ay
Cause my family gotta eat
Ay
Ay
They depending on me
So I'm taken everything but ya money on me

Lately, I've been struggling not moving to fine
And my biggest fear is happening I'm wasting my time
And writers block stops me from delivering ya'll rhymes
And the way I hate myself I know ain't good for my mind
I promise that I'm trying even though I'm in jail
Like forreal man I'm trapped in this mentalish hell
Like I'm happy for a second then my mind just rebels
I swear I prayed to god asking if he could help
So I waited
I didn't hear a thing I was jaded
I'm trying everything to keep myself from breakin
Meditation
Keeps all this anger from raisin
But I swear I will make it or I'm robbing some places
They use to laugh at our faces cause of minimum wages
But I'm talking to ma momma and my grandma relax
Let me rack it all up then we getting them back
But my family to humble they won't do em like that

I was raised by a mother who got beatin to death
And the running that she did was to hide us from threats
And the hotel lobbies was a place for a breath
The money that she had spent it all on the rent
I wonder what would happen if you ever did rest
Well I'm glad that you didn't let me handle the rest
I'm nothing like you momma I ain't kind and content
I don't think I just speak whatevers stuck in my chest

Can afford to fall asleep
Ay
Ay
Cause my family gotta eat
Ay
Ay
They depending on me
So I'm taken everything but ya money on me
Ay
Ay
Can afford to fall asleep
Ay
Ay
Cause my family gotta eat
Ay
Ay
They depending on me
So I'm taken everything but ya money on me

I'm everything my family ain't I'm speaking it raw
I ain't loving I don't care about your feelings at all
I ain't scared of taking risks why you care if you fall
I will never hesitate you won't act if you stall
And that's the truth
That's why I choose to move
I love it when they say that cha boy gone lose
Ima break all the rules ima have em like woo
While I'm chilling with the fam not a stress in the room
Ay

Can't afford to fall asleep
Cause my family gotta eat
Ay
So I'm taking everything
I'm taking everything
I'm taking everything