It's Ok If You Need Healing

Had a cake of sadness baby
With a frosting made of crazy
Couldnt wake myself from that dream
And it all just seems so hazy
Moving on feelin so lazy
Layin down watching Scorsese
Swallow me inside the tv
Only way I cannot feel me
Need some help but can you blame me
Chose the bread over the Baileys
Feeling like Im pushing daisies
Ups and down feeling so wavy
Its ok if you need healing
Happiness aint always built in
You can find that better off twin
Who is comfortable in her skin.

And it all feels so wrong
Even writing this song
Ive got to pull myself up
Ive got to heal myself yeah

I walked into that old town
The one Ive come to know so well
The place where I wear my own crown
The place where I am raising hell
Ive got some baggage right beside me
Got some money got some skills
But the broken glass Im hiding
Breaks me down until Im a shell
I've got an emptiness inside me
Cannot see it down from hell
I Gotta find that feel of thriving
Cannot buy with dollar bills
I left the town where i was living
Came right back and my blood spilled
I Cannot do what others want now
Ive got to do me or Im killed
I cannot please my mom and daddy
If I do I'm just a shield
Running away from fears inside of me
that my parents did instill
I wanted to create a body make
Everyone feel fulfilled
But inside that process I lost me
Years later had to rebuild

Rediscover what I wanted
And get rid of all that guilt
Fight the demons that had taunted
And uncover what was sealed
I was waiting for permission
To feel better to feel grown
But kept ignoring my vision
Kept listening to my phone
I was so focused on whats written
Was so focused on whats known
Right before i could admit that
I could find it on my own
I Had to do some mental searching
Had to spend some time alone
In my subconscious it was lurking
That my life i had postponed

But its ok if you need healing
Dont let yourself fight the feeling
Baby steps is where you begin
Let your body and mind back in
Find your brothers and your sisters
that support that very movement
Fuck the past and fuck the pictures
be present and find improvement
Feed your body and your mind
then take the world and leave an imprint
Leave the coffee keep the grind
Soon theyll be wondering where youve been
Wondering where youve been

Its ok if you need healing



Credits
Writer(s): Olivia Pintz
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