Back When

Just when I think I've learned it all
I see your face and down I fall
I can't explain so let's pretend
That I'm content being your friend

If time is the ultimate healer
I'm afraid that you have no cure
Just distractions to keep me near
And from running out the back door

I can not forget the things you'd say
Back when our story was clean
Every time the feeling is the same
When your name shows on my cell screen

Just as I start to catch my breath
You pull me on for one more death
They say there's nothing like your first
Even more so when you're their worst

If time is nothing more
Than a figment of our imagination
I don't think it's strange
That I can't seem to shake memories of you yet to come

I can not forget the things you'd say
Back when our story was clean
Every time the feeling is the same
When your name shows on my cell screen
Waking from dreams I lose my place
I was so sure that it was you
I want to know if you could feel the same
I already know it's not true