Because of You

Sick and tired of this (sick and tired of this)
Have to deal with life as it is (life as it is)
Ended up not being the father of the kid
Years later still feel what you did (ya)
Sick and tired of this (sick and tired of this)
Have to deal with life as it is (life as it is)
Ended up not being the father to the kid
Years later still feel what you did (ya)
Sick and tired of this (sick and tired of this)
Have to deal with life as it is (life as it is)
Ended up not being the father of the kid
Years later still feel what you did (ya)
Sick and tired of this (sick and tired of this)
Have to deal with life as it is (life as it is)
Ended up not being the father to the kid
Years later still feel what you did

Situation I still think about
Sad to say but even you sometimes
I still think about
Could things of been different
I still blame myself blame myself
Should of been my name next to yours
To get a house but I got shit credit
So again ended up back on a couch
Left broken feeling alone
With that self doubt
My brains like a jungle gym
Got to piece it together where do I begin
Another shot giving me the spins
Got no obligations now hell ya that's a win
Let the party begin
Let the party begin
Of course I'm hanging at the spot
Something I can snort something I can pop
In a bad place I don't think anyone new
I fell right back in to my depression
Because of you all these vices
Think there helping
So did what I needed to uh
Till Halloween came
An I was asked to come thru
Drinking heavily
Lost track after third valium
I've been like this for months
I didn't care if I woke up
But see you got to hit that low
To no when you had enough
I know what happened
how I got to this point
I showed myself I'm worth more
Then empty bottles and a couple of joints

Sick and tired of this (sick and tired of this)
Have to deal with life as it is (life as it is)
Ended up not being the father of the kid
Years later still feel what you did (ya)
Sick and tired of this (sick and tired of this)
Have to deal with life as it is (life as it is)
Ended up not being the father to the kid
Years later still feel what you did

For months I was ghost
Barley talked to anyone
Felt like being sober I wasn't any fun
That's a shitty feeling and I'm stuck
In this living room
I need to get out
I didn't know what to fucking do
I just worked an stacked bands
So I can move
It was my choice
I had something to fucking prove
I'm sick of this anxiety
I'm sure I made it worse
What happened to me
I let myself become the worst
Or maybe I had no choice
And I'm fucking cursed
Maybe destiny is a real thing from birth
I feel like a ghost now
Its hard to get me to hangout
Staying sober at least trying too
I've drinking a little
But its something that I have to do
An that's what I need to do
An that's what I need to do
What I need to do is stay sober so I can prove
Buts its so fucking hard when I miss you
Sometimes I crave a pill maybe two a few
I just assume
This cigarette habits because of you
I mean what's worse this cigarette
Or this line of blue
To be honest all these things
Happened because of you
All these habits are because of you
Dillon
Sick and tired of this (sick and tired of this)
Have to deal with life as it is (life as it is)
Ended up not being the father of the kid
Years later still feel what you did (ya)
Sick and tired of this (sick and tired of this)
Have to deal with life as it is (life as it is)
Ended up not being the father to the kid
Years later still feel what you did

Situation I still think about
Sad to say but even you sometimes
I still think about
Could things of been different
I still blame myself blame myself