Trains

I'm on the bus
Remembering our first date
Not the bar, not the walk, not the sex
I'm remembering you falling asleep right next to me

Couldn't rest, kept staring at your chest
Watching your breath
Watching you breathe
My only regret is I can't forget
All the songs we listened to
While I was holding you
We were quietly healing
Staring at the ceiling
Never truly knowing what the other one was feeling or
Going for a drive with my head on your thigh
Stick shift wasn't easy, but you certainly tried

Now I'm home, I'm totally alone
I'm sitting on my couch and I'm staring at my phone
The one I left you for isn't at my door
You never had time either, but you always made more
You always made more

I'm remembering the day we didn't jump the train
'Cause I didn't take my meds and I was in pain
And you were so kind 'cause I wanted to try
But you knew you shouldn't let me so you said
"Next time"
There was no "next time"

And we just watched our train go by
Watched our train go by
Watched our train go by
Watched our train go by
Watched our train go by
Watched our train go by

Now I'm going to bed, pillow under head
Room so quiet, it's like I'm already dead
These memories, they're no good for me
Because the only thing I want now is to hear you breathe
Or to watch you dream

I woke up remembering our first date
Not the bar, not the walk, not the sex
I'm remembering you waking up right next
To me