Offering (Demo)

Have my efforts only ever been a waste?
Is the reason for my confidence just getting to me late?
Start to call this life a wash
If I don't have the same ambition
I know these are shit conditions
But that doesn't give me faith

What's the point of all my willingness if I'm just stuck inside?
What's the point of making wishes if its all a subtle lie?
In my braver moments
Maybe I can laugh at what this is
Just all a process of unfolding energies that will exist

The stars aligned and came together using us to live
So why am I so tied to how I only think it is?
Still depressed on a schedule
Find relief in rotation
Getting closer to levels
But then forget what I'm chasing

It's like I'm jumping from grace
But then I was falling into it again
I'm diving away but seeing the light in some music
I get the spark and I lose it
That's just the Tao it be doing
Just the fact of our being
I wanna make a renewal

You run but you still won't find it
You run but you're still just hiding
You run but you still won't find it
You can but you still won't

You run but you still won't find it
You run but you're still just hiding
You run but you still won't find it
You can but you still won't

All these words I write can they really show what I feel?
At times a verse can make it sound like it's got aesthetic appeal
But it's void of any function for the purpose that I seek
Because I see a lack of any value inherent to me

A heavy face of weight that I don't really ever know
Maybe amalgamations forming from collections of my lows I guess
A value statement constantly inside the brain controls
All of the faith to be arriving in this moment as it goes

I watch the ticking back and forth and try to be a soul
Try, try and try again to be some pattern for the whole
If I can fly I will descend for every step that I'm alone
If I can bluff then I'm obsessed with all the ways that I will fold

Why's a wise being just giving me hide and seek?
Why's a fine line sitting between this and that relief?
Find my god sitting and chilling because I sleep
But a light's on so can we offer him something please?

You run but you still won't find it
You run but you're still just hiding
You run but you still won't find it
You can but you still won't

You run but you still won't find it
You run but you're still just hiding
You run but you still won't find it
You can but you still won't